I miss Kate.

... a lot.

coconut juice is amazing

Everyone go buy fresh young coconuts (the white kind that looks like its been shaped)
make a couple holes and drain the water from inside.

commence drinking.

so fucking good

When I have nothing to do. and no where to go.
What happens then?
What if I have things I could do. but nothing I want to do.
What if I want to go for midnight ride through hills and valleys. but then reality weighs me down.
What if I realize my life isnt going where I'd want it to go. but for some reason I refuse to move.
What if I want to will people into my life. but it doesn't seem to be working.
What if I recognize all my faults. but I don't see the need for change.
What happens when I do see the need for change.
What if I want to shape the world to accommodate my every need.

Shit man.

I'm strumming my guitar but nothing new seems to be coming out. Stagnant. Am I not inspiring passion in other people. Is no one drawn to me. even in that creepy way?
Fuck am I that boring.
Just crossing off and chugging on.
I can't do those things on my own. I suppose I do need to be placed in the boiling pot.

You get to the end. but then you're not finished.

Fucking shit. What the hell do I do then??
I wanna fucking jump in the street and yell. and roll in the sand.
and get drunk. and talk to people.
remember when you used to sit in a room with a bunch of friends and it wasnt loud and obnoxious and fake?
remember when we used to explore because everyone was right there in the same place.
not solitary.
not removed from everyone that matters to you...
and you realize everyone that is around you has someone or something that matters more to them than you.

Bike Chain.. Caught rag... Mangled Thumb

Death...
almost but not really.
My thumb is mangled. maybe permanently. I might have some weird googly nail and might not get feeling back in the tip.

repetitive motion injury

Olsen, Benjamin says:
did you stay up in silverlake last night?
Olsen, Benjamin (Space Technology) says:
or did you come down after getting dumped
Armagan, Onur (Space Technology) says:
nah i stayed up there
Armagan, Onur (Space Technology) says:
got dumped via text message this morning
Olsen, Benjamin (Space Technology) says:
text message... that is so lame!
Armagan, Onur (Space Technology) says:
well when its the third time in a month
Armagan, Onur (Space Technology) says:
you gotta keep it fresh
Olsen, Benjamin (Space Technology) says:
hah, yeeaaah i guess
Armagan, Onur (Space Technology) says:
next time she'll send me a letter in the mail
Olsen, Benjamin (Space Technology) says:
LoLL
Armagan, Onur (Space Technology) says:
perhaps a telegraph
Olsen, Benjamin (Space Technology) says:
then a carrier pigeon
Olsen, Benjamin (Space Technology) says:
smoke signal
Olsen, Benjamin (Space Technology) says:
telepathic nightmare
Armagan, Onur (Space Technology) says:
sign language
Olsen, Benjamin (Space Technology) says:
semaphore
Armagan, Onur (Space Technology) says:
or a subliminal art piece
Olsen, Benjamin (Space Technology) says:
I wish i could get dumped via semaphore
Armagan, Onur (Space Technology) says:
what the hell is a semaphore
Olsen, Benjamin (Space Technology) says:
it's a sorta naval flag signalling system
Olsen, Benjamin (Space Technology) says:
to communicate between ships before radio and whatnot

a week of Music

whoaaa, the Easy Marks and Beck in the same week!? shiitt

I got tickets for Beck's secret show tomorrow night. should be pretty amazing.

saw Alex's brothers band.. 6 dudes from illinois in a shitty old white van. haha
there were only like 10 people at the show but what are you gonna do. It was there first show in big bad LA!